Monika MatthewsI wish I had a TeddybärWhere’s the untranslatable german word for THIS feeling?May 8, 2022May 8, 2022
Monika MatthewsanniversariesThree years and a couple of hours ago, the person who loved me most left this world.Feb 13, 20181Feb 13, 20181
Monika Matthewshow to clean windowsI moved into my little downtown apartment in San Francisco nine years ago. I chose this particular unit, with its shoebox measurements…Feb 7, 2018Feb 7, 2018
Monika Matthewshabits aren’t easy to breakLast night I felt the weight of losing my mom more than I thought was possible at this point. My mom and I didn’t always talk at regular…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
Monika Matthewsthe things you missMy mom was known for some pretty fantastic tidbits of advice. She was a wise woman in so many ways, and she was smarter than most people…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
Monika MatthewsSaturday AfternoonShe squints as the clouds blow by, letting the sun flash in through the cafe window. “I just don’t get why he hasn’t called back. It’s…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
Monika Matthewswhen OKCupid worksShe leaned a little into the ledge of the roof deck as he took an almost imperceptible step toward her. The conversation had been lively…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
Monika Matthewsan unusual birthday presentI picked out a casket like I would shop for any other large purchase. I went into it thinking I wanted a rich wood casket. Unfortunately…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
Monika Matthewsa thousand goodbyesA year ago today I spoke to my mother for the last time. I’m not sure she could hear me, and I’m not sure she could understand me if she…Mar 5, 2016Mar 5, 2016
